Ok, so today is day 3 of my abandonment, and last night has to be the worst part. It can NOT get worse than that. You see, when Mike’s gone I don’t sleep very well. Maybe I just feel more secure with Mike there or something, but I sleep way better when he is with me. So the first night I slept very little, then the second night I slept better but the animals kept shifting around on the bed and waking me up, but last night was awful.
I hung up the phone with Mike at around 10:30ish and I think I actually fell asleep pretty quickly. I later woke up to some scuffling, where the dog was trying to jump back up on the bed, which was odd because she usually sleeps through the night, but since she had been out and about I needed to check and see if there had been any accidents. Of course, there had been. I was so angry, I took her over to the spot and yelled at her for being a bad dog, then I told her to go back to bed (which she did - she may be bad, but she’s not stupid). So I had to clean it up because urine stains are easier to get out when they are fresh. I went back to bed, but my blood was boiling and it took several hours just to calm down, and the rest of my night was either dreams of Suzi having more accidents, or waking up paranoid because I couldn’t see where she was right away. I got about 2 hours of restful sleep last night.
When I got up for my shower, I put her in the cage because I don’t trust her, and I must not have put the latch on properly, because she got out and had ANOTHER accident! So I did the whole “bad dog” yelling thing, and stuck her in the cage. She only came out long enough to go out (not that she needed to…) and eat. After that, I stuck her back in the cage. I may end up putting her there all night tonight. I need some sleep! I only got to work early because I just couldn’t stand to hear her whining.
So if this is what that other person was going through, I guess I can understand why she wanted to get rid of her. If we don’t get her into some obedience classes or train her properly, I’m afraid she’s going to have to go away. My carpet is going to be completely yellow in a matter of months, and I’m going to be much more irritable than I am now. It’s really too bad because she is sweet when she’s behaving, but that isn’t often enough. The only reason that I’m lucid at all right now is that I took a mini-nap after I caged her for 15 minutes, and felt rested enough after that to drive to work. Oy. I just want some sleep!