Cremes

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I’m really thinking that I should have ignored what mom said and gone home anyways. I really don’t want to be here these days. Or at least have a car or something. I like my schoolwork and all (most of the time) but I really just want to fall into some sort of abyss where I don’t have to see couples cuddling and junk. This separation is really tough on me right now, and it seems like everywhere I go I’m being assaulted with lovey dovey people. If Mike was here, this would be so much easier. Alley is good company, but I need more. I wish I had the time to get a job, that would fill up some of this emptiness and loneliness.

Don’t have much to say, but I’m feeling chatty today so why not ramble for a bit? I managed to get a fair bit of work done, despite only regaining conciousness at about noon. This weekend was pretty productive, if I do say so myself. On friday, I did some work on that Immigration Visa, aka found a super helpful website (http://www.immihelp.com) that simplified everything LINE BY LINE on the application (how much easier can you get?) and so I printed out some forms to send along to Mike, now I just have to retake my passport photos (GRR) and then mail him everything, along with “evidence” that we’ve met in the last two years. So I’ll photocopy my passport and send along some boarding passes and itineraries, not to mention correspondence between the two of us. I thought about sticking in a wedding invitation, but meh. Maybe Mike can photocopy the receipt of my wedding gown or something, since I believe that’s still in Texas.

Yesterday, I completed my last final exam! Wee! I emailed that to my prof yesterday afternoon. Now I’m just waiting for all of my marks to show up online. Right now, my GPA is 3.01, so maybe it just might go up a little. So far, I got two A-’s. YAY! I’m fairly certain that I got an A- at least in Non Western History, which was my first year course. My prof said I was doing well, and my “progress” mark (more profs need to give out those) was an 80, so *just* an A-. The only class I highly doubt that I received an A in is American South. I got decent marks on most of my stuff and I try to participate in class, but it was a lot of work and information to absorb. I did get an A- on the essay, so go me. I was expecting a C on that one, so maybe I’ll get a good mark in the course after all? Hard to tell.

Today, I just did assignments and reading, nothing of any major consequence. The important thing is to sit and figure out what I have due for this week, then itemize and prioritize. The distance course generally gets the shift, but I can’t afford to not make it to my contract date. The one-month extension was definitely a blessing, and I don’t want to screw it up. I intend to have my first assignment completed and in the mail by the middle of the week.

Anyways, I guess I should get back to it, time is a-tickin’ and Desperate Housewives time will get here before I know it. I’ve only got three hours to go! :D And after that, I probably won’t feel like studying anymore, so here goes!

I suppose that it was my choice to stay home, but really, who wants to go out with three couples? Especially when I’ve really been missing Mike these days. I just feel happier when I’m out there with him. Here, I’m piled under schoolwork and crap. I’ve got some movies to watch, so I might pop one in later and work on a cross stitch that I was supposed to have finished awhile ago. Right now, I’m just waiting for everyone to be at the bar so I can concentrate on my studies. I wish I didn’t need complete and utter silence to read, it’s so frustrating.

In good news, I got that free extension from Athabasca. Whoo! So now I have until the 2nd of March to have it all completed. I’ve already started my first essay (out of three) and my plan is to do an essay each weekend or so, until it’s all completed. I’ve got some reading to do for my other classes and two short assignments, but it hasn’t really “begun” yet for my actual classes. I’ll be short circuiting in a month, I wager.

Next weekend I believe I’m going home for a few days. That is, if Mom’s new Dell PC comes in. I’m expecting it on Tuesday. Then she’s going to come pick me up on Friday and I’ll be back on Sunday or Monday, depending if I end up taking the shuttle or not, which I imagine I will, so Monday it is! She’s bringing a coffee table from the house, yay! We’ll finally have a place to put food and drinks when we’re hanging out! I’m hoping to hang out with the girls at least once since I didn’t really when I was home from Texas for those few days.
I really wish I had a car… I probably would have gone home this weekend! Or maybe even taken a day trip into the city. Ah whatever, I have schoolwork that needs to be done, so I might as well just do it and then I can relax later on.

I’m wet and cold, stupid rain. I wish I had taken a taxi this morning, but noo. Sometimes I feel like a doof. I’ll learn for next time I guess. Everything I touched this morning was wet. I sat in a cold classroom for 1 1/2 hours freezing, so nothing dried like it’s supposed to. So I’m trying to dry out my pant legs without buying new clothes, which is very tempting sitting next to the campus store. Anyways, I have a meeting in an hour or so with someone for the note taking job I’m thinking about taking. Basically, I just take notes in my Cold War Canada class, and then pass them on to the person coordinating the thing. Sounds easy enough, and it’s helping someone with a hearing disability. I’m also going to be working with Ann the Librarian (I believe she has a last name, I just don’t remember it!) with shelving books and whatnot, so that’ll be a little extra cash as well. I have some money to deposit today between classes, but I’m going to wait until after my 12:00-1:30 class to do it. I should be doing the reading for that class now, but I’m too wet and cold to even think about reading :P I should have parked next to a heater, but I’ve got no idea where they hide them. Knowing Acadia, they are in the ceiling.

Anyways, I’m still in over my head with schoolwork, but at least I’ve got two finals written, which is a major relief. Just one more to go! I’m still waiting for my marks from the registrar. They usually take some time to get them put up for whatever reason. I’ve got one of the take home exams left, and my plan is to attack it Friday after my class. If I get that done around Saturday sometimes, I can work on my distance course and the readings for Monday. Yeesh, too much school work! Can’t wait until this is over! I’m definitely looking forward to buying a house and moving. We’ve been talking about properties and what kind we want for awhile. It’s going to be so much fun to close on a place!

Well, I should at least look at my reading I suppose. Darn school. :P

Just realized that I have 20 days in which to finish a distance course. I’ve barely done anything for the course, and quite frankly, I’m a little worried. I’ve also got three finals to do this week, which I’ve only studied for one of them. I’m starting to think that I shouldn’t have spent all that time cleaning, but it needed to be done. I’m already feeling overwhelmed and it’s the first day of classes. So, I’m letting you all know that I’m going into school hibernation. You may not hear from me or see me on an MSN status other than busy for awhile. If my status is on busy, make sure it is an emergency. If I get a “hey whats up” msg, I will ignore it. I can’t throw away 800$ right now on this class by not getting it finished. Hope everyone is well, and I’ll see you all on the flip side.

Well, here we are. The beginning of the last semester of university. And all I feel is dread. Not for what comes after, but for the semester itself. Last semester was rough, and I certainly don’t want to relive it. But it feels like I’m stuck living maybe a worse version. I feel stuck in a situation that I don’t want to be in. I would rather be almost anywhere but right here. I love the apartment, but the situation is still tense and uncomfortable. I don’t feel like this place is home anymore. Times like this, you just want to hit the panic button.

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No one was supposed to be able to read that post, hence why it was called “Private Post #1″. But since it was so confusing and it didn’t even have any content anyways, I decided to take it out.

Anyways, after dealing with Alley for 4 hours we finally got home and cleaned for 2 1/2 hours, and I rearranged a few things, and bought some new stuff. Hopefully it will make living here a bit better. I got some moolah too so that puts my mind at ease. It’s good to be back I guess. We’ll see how the semester pans out. Right now my wireless internet isn’t working AGAIN and it’s pissing me off. I’ll fix it tomorrow. I’m also considering buying cable. We got a nice big TV, but it’s hard to say if it will bring in ATV or not, which is the only channel I need, but I’m going to have to buy a cable first and find out. Looks like an exciting week ahead.