Cremes

So after sleeping most of the morning, I’m here, half spaced out in front of the TV with my season 1 of Dawson’s Creek, taking ten minutes to write a sentence because I’m so out of it. I’m wearing pj pants for crying out loud. You know I’m under the weather when I’m wearing pjs as clothes. I don’t really intend to leave the apartment, so pj pants are fine for today.

I’d like to keep this entry as devoid of cries of agony, but otherwise I can’t think of much else to type about. Kitty is sacked out next to the heater as per usual. I was planning on making a pizza today, but considering I can hardly move maybe it wouldn’t be wise to cook in this state. Not to mention cooking for others while ill is probably not a wise idea, although Robyn and Casey are also sick. So it’s not like I would ensicken anyone :P, but I’d rather lay on the couch for the remainder of the day.

After 30 minutes of thinking and not typing (sooo out of it) I decided to make pizza after all, so the Bread Machine is already hard at work. Yay bread machine! Anyways, I should sit here and moan some more. Ciao!

I was to quit school, elope in Vegas and move to France, spending my life saving stray cats and giving them a home.

What a friggin’ night. I was studying for my test tomorrow and chatting and stuff and then Mike called with rather unpleasant tidings. I thought that the bridesmaid issue had been resolved, but apparently not. So there was arguing and tears. This could not be at a worse time, I have so much school to worry about and I’m failing a class and I have to worry about finding someone to take care of Alley… it’s just too much to have to worry about causing rifts in families over stupid things like wedding parties.

So after two hours of discussion over that, I hung up and proceeded to almost burn down the apartment. I was trying to saute some chicken to top a salad with, and inadvertantly set the stove on fire. Luckily, Casey is skilled in such instances and saved us all. I don’t know, all this stress is just too much.

And tomorrow it’s Tuesday, which is my worst day for classes. I can’t imagine that I’ll end up in the 8:30 after a night like tonight. Then my piano lesson and voice lesson… haven’t practiced in almost a week. Sigh. Just let it end…

Well, tomorrow noonish I’m heading out and going back home, first time since Christmas vacation. I’m not really thrilled with the thought of not having the internet for a few days, or being able to do much school work, for that matter, but I guess it will be nice to spend the weekend somewhere besides here. I plan to bring a lot of school work home with me so I’ll be studying for my recording test and doing assignments that are due on Monday. I’m still shocked that we don’t have Monday off school. I thought for sure that we would since we usually do. Although I think Easter fell during exams last year, so it didn’t really matter.

Tonight we’re having a get together, so it should be interesting. I’m going to take it easy this time, I don’t want a repeat of the formal! Not to mention, Mandy and I have to be up and at ‘em at a decent hour so we can’t be awake all night. Well, we could, but that would make for a not so fun three hour drive back.

So I hope everyone out there has a great long weekend, and I’ll be back online sometimes on Sunday!

So I find out today that I might not be able to graduate next year. I’m failing one of my required courses, which is the prerequisite for 2 more courses I’m registered for next year. When I went to meet with my teacher and she told me, I cried. I hate crying in front of teachers, but it was like I couldn’t hold it in if I tried. She’s going to talk to the professor and see if I can handle the 2nd year course, but if not I will have to repeat the second semester of this course. I passed the first half with a C, but it’s not looking so good for this one. I have a myriad of choices if I do end up failing the course.

I can quit.
I can take a semester off.
I can transfer.
I can see if I can take an Arts Options degree.

None of them are the best choice, but it’s all I have. I just want to be done with school and go on with life.

I thought I might start keeping people updated on the wedding planning process if they were interested, so here’s my first go of it. So far, I’ve only planned a very miniscule amount, but these things are long, arduous processes, so I’m not really in any hurry to plan the entire thing in one month!

This is one of the dresses that I’ve looked at. So far, it’s one of my favorites, but I’m really going to have to keep looking. I also like this one. I’m pretty much looking for something in those styles. Nice and pretty, but not too poofy or crazy.

We still don’t have a location. I looked at this place and this place, but so far it’s not looking like either are going to work out. We might have to settle for a church in Yarmouth and then maybe have the reception either at my parent’s house (to save money) or at the Rodd Grand Hotel if it’s affordable.

I’d like to have the rehearsal dinner at the Grand Hotel too, I read in their banquet menu something about all you can eat mussels, which sold me on that. Not to mention there aren’t that many classy restaurants around there.

My wedding party has been picked out, I’m just waiting for Mike to finish up his. I decided my bridesmaids would wear navy blue, but as for specific styles, I might have to wait and see what looks best when we go dress shopping! My maid of honor’s dress is going to look slightly different from the two bridesmaids, but we haven’t figured out how yet.

I haven’t thought too much about the rest of the plans, but I thinking that I might have daisies in my flower arrangement. Maybe a few different colors of daisies. :D Blue and white and maybe even yellow. That would be pretty.

For now, I’ve registered at Bed Bath and Beyond and WalMart. I haven’t decided if I’m going to register somewheres else yet or not.

Oh, and if anyone didn’t know yet, the date is June 3rd, 2006!

Well, I had a good visit with my mom this weekend. She came up and we ended up watching all three Harry Potter movies since she hadn’t seen them. Of course, she had no idea what was going on because the books really explain the bulk of that. The movies are just a way to bring the highlights of the book to life. But yeah, we went to Pizza Delight (yay!) and Walmart, bought some things that I needed in the apartment. I finally have a trash can in my room! Huzzah!

Also have lots of food in the apartment which is super nice. I won’t be starving! I still have those GCs from Sobeys/AirMiles that are coming in. 80$ worth! Should keep me fed until I leave here for the States. Speaking of the States, my flight hasn’t even been reserved yet! I hope that gets sorted out soon, I like knowing that I’m on my way out of here. :D

It’s hard to believe that it’s already nearing the end of the semester. I hope that it doesn’t snow too much more — today IS the first day of spring! (Or is it tomorrow? Soon, at any rate.) I’m just impatient for warmer weather. But yeah, only 1 1/2 months left of school, and really only 26 days left until classes are over (including the weekends! — only 19 days left of class!). However, that means that it’s getting closer to crunch time. Soon, I’ll be pencilling into my planner all my final projects and exams, and hurrying around trying to finish everything in time. I’m hoping to finish my final tech project before classes are done so that it’s one less thing to worry about. I still have to mix it into 5.1 (ooh, surround sound!) but recording the parts is the biggest concern at the moment. Tonight I’m hoping to get the piano, drums, and possibly some vocals and random percussion down. Then I have to get the guitar and bass part. So much to do in 1 month! At least I have one less job to worry about, that gives me much more time to be flexible with getting everything done around other people’s schedules! Not to mention some key relaxation time. Ah, the life of a student!

My schedule for next year still isn’t completely set in stone. I’m doing an art minor, so hopefully that will bring up my GPA and not to mention be really creative which is always a plus, and I’m hoping that it will be easy. I cannot draw very well, so maybe it will teach me some new things. I need to replace a class that’s not being offered this year (silly people!) and I still have no idea how to go about doing that. I’ll somehow figure it all out — I just hope that I can graduate!

I thought it would be fun to add a new “feature” to my newest blog incarnation. So starting now, anyone that has something they want to review (such as movies, books, CDs, etc) can do so. Just let me know by comment or email that you want to be promoted to reviewer and I’ll wave my magic wand a few times and you’ll have access. After I give you the go ahead, you can go into the admin area and you’ll find yourself in a place called the Dashboard. From there you can write reviews and post them. You have to make sure that you place them in the proper category, but I’ll give more detailed instructions to anyone who volunteers.

If no one takes to it (which is a possibility!) I intend to keep it going for myself and post my own reviews on occasion. I plan to write one for after I finish The Virgin Suicides book, so keep an eye out for that one!

So if you see/read/listen to something that you really like or think is just plain awful, then submit a review!!

So my big devious plan to not pay for the apartment and not worry about Alley’s well-being for the summer is down the tubes. Or is it?

The plan was originally for my friend Owen to stay here and take care of Alley and pay the rent, but now it’s looking like he’s going home for the summer and I’m stuck without someone to take care of my place. Casey might be staying but I have no idea if that’s a go or not. If she stays then I could save on the rent and have someone to take care of her without having to pay to bring her to Texas. Not to mention I don’t have to burden Mike’s parents with my meowy kitty for a month. As much as I’d love to have Alley with me I know that it would be an added responsibility and kind of a pain to cart her around. Especially since she doesn’t really travel all that well. I’m hoping that the first time I have to bring her down there is when we move down there — and we’ll definitely have to heff her up on kitty tranquilizers to stop her from doing her weird drooling all over herself panicking thing. Alley’s a strange kitty, that’s for sure!

I really was hoping that I wouldn’t have to deal with all these financial issues, but I guess it’s just something that I have to deal with. It would have been nice to save money over the summer instead of just barely making ends meet, but I guess I’m just not that lucky. Once next week rolls around I’ll be able to see how close I’ll be to getting my Visa paid, but I won’t have enough left for rent without using the Visa for it. Honestly, this running around has to end! I’m going to be so happy when I don’t have school getting in my way.

I know I should be doing some homework but I saw a comment for an old post and it happened to also have a comment by my ex that I’m no longer keeping in contact with. I think I may have used that comment to completely sever ties, since I felt (and still feel) that there’s no reason to keep in touch. When I look back all I feel is embarressment. And although I know that it happened for a reason, I still wish it hadn’t. Because if Cody hadn’t brutally broken my heart, I wouldn’t have been vulnerable and gone for Joel, then I wouldn’t have realized I deserved better than to be treated like crap and actually started being choosy about who I got romantically involved with. Then I wouldn’t have met Mike, fallen in love, and gotten engaged… well, the chances are lesser, at any rate. And I wouldn’t want to trade my present situation for anything, I just wish the path to here had been somewhat different.

I did a quick search to see if the ex is still alive, and he is. Makes me wonder if half the people I knew in elementary school and on are still alive. What they’re doing. Maybe one of these days I’ll look everyone up. Maybe even send an email.

Or maybe just let old memories fade.