January 24, 2005
One Is A Lonely Number
I don’t understand what it is about me that I always end up in pretty much the same place. Here, by myself, in front of the computer. For once, I’d like to know what the average college experience is like. Just a taste. I wish it wasn’t that big of a deal if I wanted to go out for once. Or catch a movie. Or anything. Hang out and chat for a few hours. Whatever. Sometimes it feels like I’m not really living my life. I’m just kind of here. It would be so awesome to have a group of girlfriends that were like me. Not carbon copies, but that liked the same things I did, that I had things in common with and that we enjoyed hanging out together. Maybe then I wouldn’t be so anxious for this crap to be over. As things stand, I just want it to be summer so I can not worry about being lonely for 4 months. The second I can, I’ll be out of here and on a plane.
MadMup said,
January 25, 2005 @ 9:10 am
Loneliness is a weird animal. I’ve often found myself lonely in a crowd, and I think I’ve figured out that loneliness isn’t an absence of people, it’s an absence of a particular person.
Brian Arnold said,
January 25, 2005 @ 12:04 pm
I’d have to agree with Mup here.
As for the average college experience - I don’t think there is one. Our experiences are as unique as we are. My college experience involved watching two of my best friends drink their lives away (and they’ve fully recovered now, finally) while I sat at a computer with most of my free time.
*supportive hug*