November 26, 2004
I HATE Confrontations!
So I’m living in an apartment now and not on res (Yay). But lately I’ve noticed that I’m doing the cooking, cleaning, and taking out of garbage plus all my school crap. I’m getting to the end of my rapidly fraying rope (to quote Julia Roberts). I completely cleaned the entire apartment that Saturday of the snow storm. From top to bottom, until the power went out.
I’ve pretty much been the only one trying to keep it that way. Now don’t get me wrong, I like my roommate. But I just wish that she’d pitch in a bit more. I doubt that she reads this, although it would make it easier to bring it up since she would already know that the problem exists, so I don’t know how to go about telling her. I know she’s going through a not so good time, but that doesn’t give her leave of abscence from reality. I can’t do everything. I’m not doing well in my classes, and I’m trying to remedy that. I’d like to get tons of work done so that I don’t have to worry about it when I’m visiting my father this weekend. I can’t do it all!!!!!! I’m just one person, one very emotionally unstable person, and I just can’t handle all of this pressure.
Gosh I need a vacation so badly.
Robyn said,
November 26, 2004 @ 1:44 pm
Ok so I’m the roommate for anyone other than Meagan reading this. To be perfectly honest I was pretty mad when I read this. And just like you Meagan, I hate confrontations, so thats why I’m posting this instead of saying it to your face. I know that this week especially I have been slacking off with stuff around the apartment. Thats because you’re right, I am going through a rough time. Thats because a guy that I was in love with, a guy that I’ve been with for the past 4 years of my life randomly broke up with me. 4 years is a really long time. And this really hurts. Tuesday when it happened and I went home I didn’t even make it all the way home. I got to Dartmouth and then started getting phsyically sick, so I couldn’t drive, my parents had to come and pick me up and drive my car home. So yeah apartment cleaning hasn’t really been on my mind. And I understand that you have things going on too. I know you must be worried about your dad, and school by its very nature is stressful. But give me a break! Up until this point I have been doing more than my share! I did dishes all the time. Maybe I didn’t do them all at once like you do, but they did get done. And to be perfectly honest at one point I was doing them a lot more than you were. That kind of bothered me, but I didn’t say anything about it because they are just stupid dishes, and I didn’t think they were worth getting in some sort of argument over. I know on the weekends you have to do everything yourself, but thats because I’m not here, and if I’m not here I’m not really dirtying anything either. I’ve vacummed the apartment at least 3 times, which went unnoticed, I’ve cleaned the bathroom, and I’ve cleaned the kitchen manytimes, which I know you have too. I have gone out of my way for you. I’ve driven you where ever you’ve asked to go, I offered to drive all the way back to Wolfville during the blackout and pick you up so you could come home with me where we still had power, I let your mom use my room as a guest room when Im not there etc. I know when people get stressed out its easier to notice whats not being done compared to what has been done in the past. I don’t want to start some sort of fight that will make living together suck. We are both going through a lot right now, and I know I haven’t really been here a lot and when I have been I don’t really do much of anything. But it isn’t fair to badmouth me like this has been the case all along. I don’t mean to sound all pissy, but I am actually really upset by this post. I don’t expect people to understand what I’m going through. I know most people my age haven’t been in a relationship that has lasted 4 years, hell thats longer than some marriages last. The guy was one of my best friends as well as my boyfriend, and to suddenly not have him there really does a lot to a person emotionally. And I know I’m probably over reacting to this post, but it on top of everything else just doesn’t sit lightly with me. I know everyone reading these posts are Meagan’s friends, so I’m not looking for support on this. This reply is more for my sake, so I don’t just dwell on it. Meagan, I know you are going through I rough time too… and I know that probably makes the little things seem worse, but I’m doing the best I can right now for me.
Meags said,
November 26, 2004 @ 2:14 pm
For anyone happening upon this now, we’ve talked faced to face and things are good. :D