Cremes

When things start getting out of hand and crazy, it’s time to cut back a little bit. So that’s exactly what I’m going to do. Now, I can’t cut out some things. I need to eat and sleep. I also need to go to school. While I’m here, a roof over my head would be great, so I need to make rent. Thus I need a job. So I can’t give that up. Then come in the extracurriculars. Those are the things that get the slip. So what are they? Jazz choir doesn’t count, since that is for a grade. My hours doing studio and tech work is also for class. I have my hobbies, but those keep me sane.

So what goes? The Ath. Unless I can cut a break there, it’s gone, and I fully intend to hand in my resignation tomorrow if something isn’t done about it. Most of you whom I talk to on a regular basis know the weekly stress ball that I get about it, and it’s unnecessary. I guess we’ll have to wait and see how it all goes.

I feel so old. I’ve just turned 21 and already my life has reached boring monotony. Youth is wasted on the young and stupid, that’s for sure. I’m not going out and getting trashed, not calling in sick from work because I have a hangover (I’ve never actually HAD a hangover), not skipping class to go to the mall, not blowing off homework to go hang out with friends. Not rented loads of movies and eating junk food all night. Basically, it’s just me, chilling (alone) either watching a movie and patting the cat or doing some crafty thing, alone. Or on the internet, which I vowed to do less of. Not to mention I have lots of work to keep me busy. I never envisioned my university career to be this dull. And that it is, incredibly dull. I can’t wait until December gets here, so I can forget school, forget homework, forget work. Hopefully get to spend time with actual people. Not to mention when Mike is down, I’ll have someone to talk to all the time. My roommate is cool and all but spending every single weekend all alone really sucks. I just can’t wait until the next two years are over. Then I can stop being stifled in this, laden down by crappy things. Also, I don’t think I’ll be committing to as many things next year as I have this year. Sure, it keeps me busy, but I don’t always have the time to get everything done to the best of my ability. Even though I don’t really have anything to do to fill up free time with.

Regardless, I hope that this semester goes by at the speed of light.

One down, two to go. Actually, three if you count my sightsinging exam on Friday morning, which I don’t really count. It takes all of ten minutes, even though I still have to prepare for it. But I spent the majority of the evening studying Recording, and I should probably start preparing for my Music History midterm that is Wednesday afternoon. I hope things will be smoother sailing after November starts. This craziness has to stop!

Other than that, I’ve been working and learning. Robyn rented Harry Potter for Gamecube so I’ve been watching her play that and working on some cross stitches for my aunt. Once I finish them, I’ll have to show some pictures. I also REALLY have to get cracking on my scrapbook! No time! No time!

As for website developments, a new Links page is in the works, along with updated links! I haven’t updated this site in ages. I think it’s beginning to feel neglected.

I am one of the happiest girls in the world today. Last Sunday I was working with a classmate on my recording assignment (we needed to record a guitar with four mics) and I was asking her if she had taken the Java course I was(!) in, and if she was faring ok in it. She told me that she had dropped it because the requirements had changed! I was shocked, and set out to investigate this right away. I met up with the Music Tech head guy, Christoph Both, and he told me to drop the course and he put me into the Apprenticeship class right away, even though it’s two months into it. Hey, it’s year long, so it’s ok. I just have to make up the hours that I missed from not being in it. Besides, they aren’t offering it next year, so this is my last chance if I want to graduate next year. How cool is that? I’m just so excited! That means that a) School will be OVER!! and b) Mike and I can be together! (Everybody together now: Awwww!)

But yeah, this is really awesome. I went to Pizza Delight with Robyn and then rented a game (Banjo Kazooie) to celebrate. Weee!! *does happy dance*

Well, no, I haven’t quite disappeared off the face of the earth. Although sometimes it may feel that way. I’ve been so swamped in schoolwork after being sick and taking almost a whole week off classes. So far I’ve only missed one assignment and one quiz, so that’s not TOO bad. I’m trying to keep my head above water, but it’s hard when I need to relax too. I’ve been trying to take out some time for ME. Been going for walks in the woods nearby, took that Halifax trip on Saturday, watched a few movies. Went out for tea/hot chocolate with a friend I hadn’t seen in way too long. I’ve been finding that this time off from the internet has been doing me a world of good, and I wanted to thank everyone that left nice, supportive comments in previous blog entries.

If you came here looking for pictures, those are just around the bend!!
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I had a very interesting night tonight. Went to work and that jazz, that part was pretty uneventful, but after I finished cleaning up, I clocked out and noticed that the restaurant was uber busy since they had a live band in. Great. That meant that every seat at the bar was taken and I couldn’t eat my supper upstairs. Wonderful.

I decide to leave and go to Subway for dinner instead. I brought my wallet with me for cab fare in case it rained, so I knew I had money on me. I ordered my sandwich and went to go pay, and I handed over my Visa since it didn’t look like I had enough change. Well, Subway apparently doesn’t take Visa so I had to leave my sandwich on the counter, feeling pretty sad. It hadn’t been a good week already and it was just adding to it.

I decided not to take a cab home and walk, since I was feeling that low. Good thing I did, because about 5 minutes later, a girl came running up to me with a Subway bag.

“Were you just in Subway?” she asked me. I nodded, probably looking incredibly confused. She handed me the bag. I took it after a slight pause and said thank you. She bade me goodnight, and headed back towards main street. I continued walking, but all of a sudden I started to cry. I couldn’t believe a complete stranger paid for my supper. So I fought tears all the way home.

Even now, an hour or so later, tears are still stinging at my eyes. It really restores your faith in humanity when something like that happens.

Well, I’m ready to be 22. Today was just awful. I was still sick like a friggin’ dog when I woke up, although I got out of bed at 8am and tried to get ready for class, but when I sneezed 1500 times in 5 minutes and had to blow my nose constantly, I decided it wasn’t worth it. So I ended up sitting at the computer for awhile and blah. Then I took a nap, got woken up by my roommate’s boyfriend and couldn’t get back to sleep. I tried to do my stupid Java assignment, but couldn’t because Novell crap had taken over my computer and wouldn’t let me so I had to down to campus even though I was trying to stay inside. I actually had to bring it to user support because it was being a pain in the arse, and then it got fixed up. So then I got surprised by a few Ath staff members and we chatted about stuff for awhile, and I got the folder for the online issue downloaded onto my computer.
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Well, the weekend has ended and yet I’m not back in school yet. I cancelled my lessons and skipped lab today. It’s raining and I still don’t feel up to snuff. Oh yes, I spent my entire weekend sick. How’s that for wonderful? It really wasn’t that bad, once I got some meds in me I was pretty normal. Right now I’m just stuffy and sleepy and headachy. I’ll probably have to take another pill today to make the sniffles go away. Bah. Stupid meds. I’m going to settle down with my DVDs in the living room and just veg out today, and get a break from the computer. After being away from the internet for a few days you can’t just jump right back in. It seems really boring really quickly. It’s funny because sometimes I think baack to the days before phone and internet in the apartment and you know, it really wasn’t that bad. I didn’t feel sluggish. Of course, being sick will do that. But I just really don’t want to be here, in school. Or in this apartment. As excited as I was about it. I don’t know any way to explain it, I’m just restless I guess.

It’s been awhile since I’ve posted, been pretty busy with work and school and a number of things. But lately I’ve noticed a pretty awful trend. People’s listening (or reading, as it may be over the internet) skills have greatly diminished. People aren’t paying attention, they don’t care, or they they don’t bother to give an extra little bit of time to hear someone else through. It makes me wonder what is important to people nowadays. Obviously not friendship!

But then again… It seems that the people who are callous, obnoxious, and couldn’t care less about other people seem to have oodles of friends. While people who would drop their plans to talk to someone (ie, me) seem to have to grasp at straws to keep friends. WHY?! It just doesn’t make any sense!

I’ve noticed this in two different ways over the past few weeks:
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