I’m already sick of school. Sick of being here, sick of not being able to finish any of the projects I have going, sick of not having any fun. Sick sick sick. It doesn’t help that apparently there are certain people to who I can’t talk to.

It’s pretty bad when you can’t even go to class and expect the prof to be there anymore. Oh no, he’s in a different class, and neglected to tell us, we have to go and find him, like a giant Where Waldo game. Excuse me, I’m paying way too much money for the profs to monkey around playing hide and go seek.

Even so, I’ve decided to try for a double major, music and computer science. Why? Because I need to find a job after I graduate. And music isn’t really the most profitable, especially since I have to admit, I can’t write music — henceforth, it makes it difficult to practice recording it. Which means that most others have scores more practice than me, since I can barely swing by. I can deal with MIDI just fine, but when it comes to anything more difficult, I’m stuck.

I guess why I want to go into Computer Science is because it doesn’t take musical talent to do that, it can easily be learned while music is another thing entirely. I like media production, and I know that’ll be helpful, but I’m going to need some other type of backup. I feel like quitting school, actually, but I know that’s just a passing phase and I wouldn’t actually do it.

I wish I could just be out of school and living real life. I know these are supposed to be the best years of your life (somehow I find that really hard to believe), but spending every day/night that I’m not working or in class alone doesn’t seem to qualify as “best” years of anything. In fact, it’s starting to get really sucky.